|the past few weeks
||[Mar. 3rd, 2006|07:04 pm]
|||||Long day by Matchbox 20||]|
I always say I'll get better about updating - and I don't.
Alot has happened in the past few weeks. On the topics of guys. First, I swear some days I'm ready to chuck Sunil off a cliff. He was a jerk for a while. Then he tore his ACL and became an even bigger jerk, but then on his birthday, he realized that he needed me. Still all confused about what to do, but he needed me, so I went to him. He had successful surgery with what will be a painful rehab and now I'm supposed to be supportive or something. I'm really trying. I am, but I'm not invincible. I've been told I need to be more understanding.
I thought I was. I deliberately didn't tell him that my formal date was a horrible kisser. (It was pretty bad) Nor did I mention the date that I had been planning with one of the players on my IM soccer team - Alex, the Spanish TA. Unlike the last Spanish student I went with, he at least spoke English as a first language. It just didn't seem appropriate to tell Sunil while he 'needed' me that I was trying to see other guys. That wasn't being supportive.
On the topics of the AMA that absorbed all my time - the conference. Not only was my formal date not a good kisser, he also was a failure at his job as a committee leader. If the conference wasn't stressful enough, he didn't do any work. I was ready to kill him. I had to do all of his work, last minute b/c he didn't do ANYTHING. At least the conference was widely regarded as success by everyone who attended, but it was still very stressful on me. The self defense workshop that I went to last year was very popular.
It's sort of funny, looking back at who I was last year. I had a much bigger circle of friends, but I don't really miss them. Between Rori, Anna, Sarah Zilka, Melissa, and Sunil - I don't have time for much more. I socialize, but I'm not worried about the next big party. My 3 guy friends I see occasionally in class, and everyone talks to me. Somehow I guess things are alot harder in Med 3. It also helps that I have roommates that keep me from feeling lonely. The AMA and my officers fill up alot of my time anyway. I really am the type now that just wants to hang out with one or two people at a time. I'm not dying for adventure or clubs or anything like that.
Well, adventure comes as judo, I guess. I just took one whole quarter. I'm getting alot better, but I feel sad that the person who introduced me to judo can't share it with me anymore. I think even trying to include him just hurts him more. I'm pretty scared - I have my first tournament next weekend actually. Wow, a real competition.